Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Woes and Worries

So it has not been a good week for us. I'm just generally exhausted from school and cleaning and Logan and every other thing that places demands on my in my life. I had my algebra II midterm today and it did not go well at all, and it wasn't from a lack of studying because I did study I just didn't give myself enough time to study everything so about half way through my test I began to draw a complete blank, freeze up, and eventually after 1 1/2 hours I just turned in a half completed test. :(

Another thing that is worrying me is Logan has begun to self-harm himself. It sort of coincides with him saying that kids at school at picking on him/laughing at him and him moving up to a class with bigger kids. I had a chat with his teacher today who said she would keep an eye out... but I doubt it will change anything. I'm really worried about him. :( I asked him why he was hurting himself and he said "because I don't like myself" and I did what any mother would have done. I grabbed him and hugged him as tight as possible while choking back tears and telling him how much I loved him and how special he was. This is a behavioral issue I know needs to be nipped in the butt quickly so I think I'm going to go to school with him on wed and sit in his class and make sure he is ok and see if I can figure out what is really going on.

On a more positive note Logan's 4th birthday is this Sunday and our pirate party (arg!) is this weekend. :) Should be tons of fun if it doesn't rain (crossing my fingers it doesn't!). I'll make sure to post photos later next week.

I've really enjoyed coming back to blogging, maybe it will help me by being a great outlet. :)

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Wow has it been that long?

We'll here we go again. I haven't blogged much in the last 2 1/2 years and I thought what the hell I'll start again.

So life has been hectic lately. I'm still in school (about to get my Associates in Liberal Arts), DH has an awesome new job as a lead/foreman with a solar installation company that totally rocks, and Logan is almost 4. WHAT really? Yep Logan will be 4 in exactly 10 days. Crazy I know! :)

March already has been packed and I'm really enjoying Logan at this age, while he has his days when he doesn't listen AT ALL (most commonly when he misses his nap) he's so entertaining to be around and is the brightest part of my day. We thought it was time we took a trip to Disneyland what with us living a meek 3 1/2 hours away in Central Cali it's not that big of a trip. We had a blast. :) I'll post pictures later.

After Disneyland we stayed at Camp Pendleton in Oceanside for 2 days, the marines there were so welcoming and gave Logan a personal tour of a tank, jeep and police car. We were staying there to attend the TAPS(Tragedy Assistance Program for Survivors ... not The Atlantic Paranormal Society, lol) Good Grief Camp.

If you're not familiar with previous blogs or in case I never mentioned it, my brother was killed in Iraq in 2006. The camp was really hard for me, I always thought that as long as I didn't acknowledge his death in any way it wouldn't be true and having to say it in front of so many people was hard. Even typing this is hard. I miss him a lot.

Sunday the 6th was our final day in So Cal so we took advantage of it and took Logan to the San Diego zoo. All I can say is that those hills were KILLER, DH suggested I go to the zoo every day for a good work out and I told him I wouldn't mind living down there. :P

So that is that so far, I didn't intend to write so much on the get go but sometimes it just happens.

Oh I did forget to mention, we've been TTC again since July 2010. It's been a frustrating journey and I was finally diagnosed with PCOS in January of 2011. I'm currently taking Metformin and just started my first round of Clomid so wish me luck. I'm not really looking forward to a December baby but if it happens that way then oh well. :)