JBF Sale!

So while the consignment sale is still going on for the rest of the week, it's over for me. I think I may have gone a bit overboard with my buying but I shouldn't have to buy much for Logan over the next 6 months. I got him around 14 outfits consisting of onsies, shirts, pants, shorts, and shortalls that will last him until October at least. I still need to get him some pjs since the only ones I could find in his size were the short/shirt ones and I got 5 of those but no footies (I make him wear footies since he insists on always taking off his socks in the middle of the night and then his feet get cold - I dread the day he realizes HE can take off all of his clothes....), so I'll have to hit up some department stores in hopes of finding clearance ones. I also bought some 18-24 month sized clothes as well so that he has something to hold him over when it starts getting cold in October until the next sale! :) I did find 5 footies in that size so I bought those but it'll be awhile before he fits into them.
I bought him TONS of toys too, again he shouldn't be needing any new ones until the end of the year. I got him a cute little radio flyer bouncy/rocking horse that he loved while we were there but I think in all honesty he might be a tad afraid of it. We also got a "fisher price drop and roar dinosaur" in really great condition with 15 roll around balls for 10$! I was really happy about that and currently I think that's his favorite toy. We also bought some peek-a-blocks, a peek-a-block turtle that you put the shaped blocks into, and a baby grand piano (which of course he's already mastering Mozart on!).
All in all I spent about 60$ on those toys, 90$ on clothes, $15 on DVDs ("Sign w/Baby" and Baby Einstein "Baby Shakespeare"), and $10 on a smaller stroller to keep in the car. I spent a total of $180 which DH was not happy about but I think I got a great deal on all the stuff I bought!
I'll update this with pictures sometime Monday.

Wordless Wednesday

my 20's have been cursed..

so I'm just making an observation about my 20's. I'll be 24 next January but it seems like my "20's" have been cursed. I had a good 20 year run without losing close family members - yeah sure a cousin who I'd never met would pass away but I usually wouldn't even find out about it until months after. Well every year since I've turned 20 I've lost someone in my immediate family: Grandma Codie Feb 2005, my brother Carl July 2006, DH's Grandmother Feb 2007, and now my mom(-in-law) Feb 2008. Honestly I'm scared about who it's going to be next.

Sleep issues...

I've been having such a hard time sleeping at night, mainly falling asleep. Once I get to sleep I'm fine it's just the whole relaxing and falling asleep that takes forever, sometimes up to 4 HOURS! I didn't do a Meal Plan Monday this week since I didn't feel much like cooking. Honestly these last few days have been such a blur... I really miss my mother-in-law alot. It's so hard losing someone who is a constant in your life and I'm really sad for Logan. His 1st birthday is in one month, and while he probably won't remember grandma Genie when he's older I'm most sad about that. I always thought she'd be there for us, at least until Logan was in highschool. Grandparents aren't supposed to die when babies are so young and Genie shouldn't have died at all. I'm still really angry at the Drs and it still feels like it's not real. Sometimes I forget for just second that she's really gone and when I remember my heartbreaks all over again.

Wordless Wednesday

My 11 month old!

do you have a spare time machine?

There have been so many times in my life where I've wished that I had a time machine to go back and fix things that have gone wrong and shouldn't have. Yesterday was one of those times.

Michael's mother passed away last night, I think we're all so much in shock. Honestly did I never in a million years think that I would loose my parents or Michael's parents so early. She'd been sick for the past two weeks with bronchitis, but her Dr never gave her antibiotics to fight it - they only gave her an inhaler of advair - and so it developed into pneumonia. She went into respitory arrest at around 6:30pm and was sent to the ER. Reedley is the closest hospital and they don't have an ICU but they could not stablize her enough to air-lift transfer her to Modesto. She went into cardiac arrest several times with them reviving her before passing from us shortly after 9pm.

When she had her appointment on the 7th her lungs were only working at 50% capacity (I didn't know this until last night, believe me if I had I'd have fought more for her to see a different doctor) so why didn't they do a chest x-ray? there are so many questions that are running though my head like "what if" but "shoulda, coulda, woulda" won't bring her back and it won't ease the pain that we're all feeling right now. I'm angry and I'm sad and I can't believe this is real. My poor father-in-law and my sister-in-law (19 is too young to loose your mother..) are both in a state of shock and we stayed with them until 3am. Michael is trying to be strong for them and I worry that he's not letting himself grieve properly because of that, but I also know he handles grief different than others.

I can't write anymore right now.

Logan's first birthday pressies

We recieved Logan birthday presents from Jackie in the mail today and Logan had such a fun time opening them up. He got a cute pair of kahki shorts, a shortsleeve shirt, and a set of "my first books" (numbers, words, and abc). Here's some photos.