Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Woes and Worries

So it has not been a good week for us. I'm just generally exhausted from school and cleaning and Logan and every other thing that places demands on my in my life. I had my algebra II midterm today and it did not go well at all, and it wasn't from a lack of studying because I did study I just didn't give myself enough time to study everything so about half way through my test I began to draw a complete blank, freeze up, and eventually after 1 1/2 hours I just turned in a half completed test. :(

Another thing that is worrying me is Logan has begun to self-harm himself. It sort of coincides with him saying that kids at school at picking on him/laughing at him and him moving up to a class with bigger kids. I had a chat with his teacher today who said she would keep an eye out... but I doubt it will change anything. I'm really worried about him. :( I asked him why he was hurting himself and he said "because I don't like myself" and I did what any mother would have done. I grabbed him and hugged him as tight as possible while choking back tears and telling him how much I loved him and how special he was. This is a behavioral issue I know needs to be nipped in the butt quickly so I think I'm going to go to school with him on wed and sit in his class and make sure he is ok and see if I can figure out what is really going on.

On a more positive note Logan's 4th birthday is this Sunday and our pirate party (arg!) is this weekend. :) Should be tons of fun if it doesn't rain (crossing my fingers it doesn't!). I'll make sure to post photos later next week.

I've really enjoyed coming back to blogging, maybe it will help me by being a great outlet. :)

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

hey guess who? sand here! told ya i'm stalking u guys! xD

i actually found this cause i wanted to find the video where logan gets angry, cause i've just seen zangief kid (look his interview up on youtube). turns out it has to do with this post, bullying, and what can be done about it.

imho, i'd teach him how to use "legal" ways of getting rid of bullying as a first option: teach him to tell the teacher what's wrong or any other authority -- that will teach him to use the legal manners whatsoever (even if times not effective...). in parallel, as a second option but not less important, teach him how to be smart, think before act if he has to act, but more importantly think through if it's worth acting at all, that as a counter to fear -- he can't fear, he has to learn to act even if in background, smart way. bottomline he has to be brave in a smart way, but still glad to be who he is (meaning ethically).

easier said than done i know, just my drop to try and help. oh yea, and it's very good that you support him in whatever, like you did. half way through is if he trusts you and tells you all that happens. that helps so much to know how to act.
take care <3